Why do we make this so hard?

I remember a time when there were no stage lights, there was no computer, and there was no stage to set-up. I remember a time when the thing that I really worked hard at was spending time with people. I also recognize that there were no where near as many people there to hang out with as well. This is not a statement about the church or about my feelings toward anything that we (Christians) are doing to share Jesus Christ with people. This is simply a place to put my thoughts and struggles out there, a place to get them off my chest I guess, and to allow others the chance to feel this way and admit to this struggle as well. I never signed up to learn how to use media, lighting, promotion, marketing, graphic design, and visioneering. I just wanted to help people meet Jesus Christ. Now there are times when I forget how to do that. I have become proficient at a lot of things, but I struggle at times with remembering what it was like to not know Christ. What it was like to "get it" to meet Jesus for the first time. I forget how to walk with a person on the road that they are walking, instead of figuring out how to fix them or help them. People have not become more complicated, more lost or hurt... We are still just like Adam and Eve who were created to love God and find it difficult at times, and sometimes we feel like we have a better idea than the one who created us. Sometimes we struggle with the idea of a creator because life seems so bad. Sometimes we just want a friend and there doesn't seem to be a willing partner.
When did ministry get confused with production or did it? The more articles and books I read the more confused I get. Everyone has the answer to our problems. If we just had good fathers that would fix everything, if we served others more that would fix the problem, if we were more tolerant to our brothers and sisters from other faiths that would fix it, if we just went to church more that would fix everything, if we have effective small groups that would fix it... and the list goes on... political reform, social justice, ending consumerism, etc...
Even now I am having a hard time with what to put down now. I don't know... I just have this nagging feeling like it isn't supposed to be this tough. I kind of just want to curl up with my Bible and take a month long break to just hang out with God for a little sabbatical. But that seems like a cop out. I want to find it in the presence of others, in the living of our lives together in one big mess. I am looking to lead or to be a part of a community, church, group, whatever you want to call it that is learning how to do life together. Whatever that means. Figuring out how to be more like Jesus in every aspect of our life. I guess that even means figuring out what to do with lights, soundboards, video projectors, and even iphones...
I know that no one is really going to read this one, so I find it a safe place to put unfinished thoughts down... If you do read this I am sorry for the mess that I have put down, I only hope that you can believe me when I say that I am just trying to figure out what to do with this thing called life that God has given us. I believe